Will I Seek the Lord?

Ezekiel 20:3 Have you come to inquire of Me?

I think this is a very important question. The Lord asks, are you coming to seek Me? Now, in context, those in question here, they were not seeking the Lord, they couldnt care less. But, this doesnt dismiss the notion, what is our motives? When I open Gods word, is it because I want Him to speak to me or reveal truth to me? Do I seek guidance from Him? I so desperately want those answers to be YES. But, my heart must be prepared beforehand. I must come to the place daily, that without the Lord, Im nothing, lost, in despair. Have I come to the place, in my heart, where it is truly the Lords will I seek or do I have a shred of selfish desire that Im pleading Him to bring about? The Lord is God, Im not! He knows the beginning and the end, I cant even get the beginning correct. He holds everything by the word of His power, and I cant even hold myself up! The Lord is truly all I have yet that in itself is very comforting because He is all I need. So Lord, I come to inquire of Your ways, Your will, Your delight for & in my life.